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Sunday, April 15, 2007
Is he really a gay???
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When you apply to join please write something about yourself and why you are joining otherwise from now on you will not be accepted. If you don't write something I will have no idea if you are a spammer or not. If you send me some snotty message like "I like him, duh" you will also not be accepted. Please be mature and respectful. Also: I do not mind that you speculate on Gerard's sexuality, but I will NOT tolerate any anti-gay comments. Saying "He can't be gay, he's too cool" or anything of the sort will now be deleted and you will be warned. You do it a second time, and you will be banned. If he is gay or bisexual, there is nothing wrong with it, and if he is straight there is nothing wrong with it. I support gay rights, tolerance, and marriage. I will not allow anymore gay bashing. Please think about what you write before you write it and make sure you mean what you say. If you mean to be hateful, you are not welcome in my group. Please do not take this as an attack on everyone or any individuals, but I hope this makes a change in the way you approach this topic. Thank you.
Ohhh... I really don't know what to think about him. Well he's right about what he said that we should accept gays in the society but does this really mean that he is a gay???
but please for those who have read this blog and is interested please follow the suggestion and don't write any "gay bashing" please.
Friday, March 30, 2007
What the Stars in the Sky tell me about Life
The day before the overnight my father and I had some miss understandings, And so I cried the whole night. When I woke up with my eyes half open I felt its pain, maybe because I was over crying. When I arrived in school every body was very excited talking about the coming overnight and they noticed that I have arrived, when they are about to talk to me they suddenly asked me if I've been crying the whole night, so I told them yes but I did not tell them the exact reason why. And as usual they started making some guesses and one guess was "did you cry because your father did not allow you to attend the overnight?" The only answer I gave them was No, But I did not tell them anything. John Rhey was asking me saying "I saw you yesterday crying, why?" and I told him the exact reason why.
Even when it was already afternoon my eyes was still very painful. After the cleaning time my father arrived and we went home. When I went home I ate my dinner and then I packed my things things. When I arrived in school I was waiting for Joni Joy. It was past seven but she did not arrive. I was thinking that her mother did not allow her to come. After a while I saw her in the catwalk and I called her name so that she can see where I am and when she saw me she went toward me and she said "my mother is there and she don't want to go home because she wanted to stay to assure that I am safe." After several minutes we were called to the LEADER to listen to Mr. Go's lecture about Jupiter and we all went there and had a nice time. After the lecture I felt sleepy so I went back to where I left my things but the others stayed to watch shutter. I was lying with my mat with Joni beside me, we were talking with and after a while we decided to have our snacks. I was having a hard time looking for a hot water but thanks to God there were some people who know how to give. after a while I tried to get to sleep.During that time I tried to get to sleep but I can not sleep because of the noise of the guitars and laughs of my classmates. And so I waited until dawn to sleep and it is already 3:00 AM when I was able to sleep but I was awakened 30 minutes after but there were some people who don't know how to respect people who want to rest. Hehehe... sige nalang.. And fortunately I was able to sleep again but some people woke me up because they felt some tiny droplets fall form the sky. And so I can not go to sleep any more then I packed my things. When it was already 6:00 AM we had some picture takings and so we went home.
By the way I did not saw any stars because it is too cloudy the whole night.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Person
There are different types of person; sometimes you thought that that kind of person exists in this world. Some examples of these people are those who only think for their selves. May be this is because their parents are also like that and they are just following it because they thought that it is right. Some people are nice but you can’t really say that they are that good if you don’t really know them that well and I have an experience like this. There was ones when a girl offered to me something when I was young and I really accepted it and after that I thought that she is a good person but then I heard about the real her about what is her true background and I have said to my self after that that I was really wrong to trust her. Some people would believe easily to what they hear first and some have their own dignity. And this made me remember something when I was still in Grade five. Sorry to say but I really find my Classmates stupid at that time because they believe immediately what they hear from the others especially the elder ones. I was really thinking that they do not know what to believe because they don’t listen to the opposite side. There was one time when they were quarrelling of something. It really started with one is to one but later on the others started quarrelling the enemy of their friend and later on they started crying. That is when I realized that they were not listening to the others side and they only believe those who were close to them even if it was wrong. Another type of people are those who always take revenge to those who have been their enemy. I have many classmates like this and I could really remember the face of the worst one among all of them but I don’t want to mention any name. There are also some people who you don’t really know what type of person they are because they are just following the direction of wind. There are also some people who would like to pretend rich even if they are not and some are those who always want to shout to the world that they are like this and that, but of course we cannot stop them of what they really are because they also have the right to choose which type they would want to be. But I think that the reason why they are like this and that is because of their parents because as a child you really believe easily to your parents because you think they were right and that is the reason why you apply these kinds of attitude. But the most stupid thing is when you would hide the true you especially your background and try to fool others with your lies and etc. It is still better to show the whole world who you really are and to accept what was given to you by God.
My First Star gazing
When we the auditions for the different clubs opened I was already thinking if I could join the Stargazers but every time I would ask this to my parents they always say that “if your father will allow you” or if I ask my father he always answers “if your mother will allow you” and because I grew tired of their answer every time I ask them I told my self that I know that they really don’t want me to be in the Stargazers. One day a fourth year student invited me to watch their Mime and it was also on that day that the stargazers will have their first over night in UP. So every one was very excited about it and most of my classmates even if they were invited were not able to watch the mime because they have to go home early so that they could already prepare the things they needed for the overnight. But I was still there until the mime had ended. My mother and father arrived 6:00 p.m. and they asked me why my classmates are bringing mats and etc. so I told them that it is because they are going to have an overnight for the Star gazing. Then I was very shocked when my mother asked me “then why didn’t you pack your things?” then I told her that I am not a member of the stargazer society Then she again asked me “why?” then I answered her that “because you did not allow me.” Then she denied, “ No, I did not tell you that you cannot enter the Stargazers” then I told her that its because of Papa, he did not allow me to be a member of the stargazers. Then My father chorused “ Its your mother who did not allow me to allow you to be a member of the stargazer” and they started blaming each other. Then my mother tole me that she will tell Mdm. Gallo that I want to be a part of the Stargazers then I told her that the membership was closed many months ago but she still went to the office to ask Mdm. Gallo. Then Mdm. Gallo said yes so I was very happy. Then I told every body that I am now a member of the Stargazers and they were also very happy. Then my parents went straight home to get all the things I needed and they brought with them a very big bag and every body was thinking that I am going somewhere far when they saw it. The funniest thing that happened is when Daisy and me were having some ghost stories while lying down and when Daisy turned around she saw me sleeping already. And when I woke up it was still four in the morning and it was very silent because all the noisy ones were sleeping and after a while my classmates also woke up and they told me that I was very lucky because I was sleeping very deep that I was not able to hear that they were all laughing and terrified of my face. They told me that when I am asleep I look like having night mares because I was sweating too much.
My HSAT experience
The day before the HSAT I felt very sad because supposedly we’re going to have our retreat in Eco- Tech and that would be the last time that our batch could have some bonding before the graduation day. I started blaming the owner of Eco-Tech because we have already scheduled a date for our retreat but they still moved our date to March 10-11 because other customers paid them earlier and I was very sad because my parents wont allow me to go and sleep there in the eve of March 10 because the next would be the Test. So I was very sad that night. Then I started wondering why are my parents like that and the parents of my classmates who are also taking the exams are not like that. But then I cannot do anything so I went home. During the night I was not able to sleep because everything that goes into my head is what my classmates are doing in Eco-Tech at the very moment and I was also nervous about the test. When I was able to sleep I was then awaken by our neighbors because it is on our tradition here in our place to have a Rosary while walking to the different places of our neighborhood and bringing with them the Lady of Fatima. And it happened that they were on the back of our house and I could really hear their voices in my bedroom. So I was awakened at 4:30 in the dawn. And after the noise fade away I could not sleep anymore because many things are going inside my head. So I spent the rest of the hours in thinking of what will happen to the exam. I also find it useless to stay home to have a rest because can’t even sleep in my bedroom. As the time drew nearer the beat of my heart was very fast. I cannot deny that I was really nervous that time because I was thinking that maybe it is as hard as the Philippine Science High entrance examination. When the sun shined in the sky I went immediately to the bathroom and I took a bath. During that time many things are really going inside my head and I cannot explain what I am feeling. I felt like I wanted to drag the time so that I could go immediately to Eco-Tech but I also want to answer the test wisely. When I was there in the hall I immediately went to my seat and stayed there, after a while Psalm, Pearl Joy and Alyssa had arrived. Then I asked them what happened to the retreat so we spent the rest of the time talking. After a while Jen Rose arrived and sat beside me. When the exam started I find the test moderate but when the science test came I really find it very difficult. As the time of the test is nearly ending I felt that my stomach was aching but I really did not know why. When the test had ended I told myself that I would never forget Jen Rose because I am sure that she will pass the test. When my parents had arrived to fetch me I already felt that I am starving to death because of my stomachache. When we arrived to the restaurant near UP I really cannot eat because of my stomachache and I was sweating too much so I went to the CR and I vomited there. My parents started to worry about me and they told me that they will not allow me to go to Eco- Tech anymore so I pretended to be fine and it was still successful because I was able to go to Eco-Tech.
Love Tour with MV Doulos
When I woke up during the day that we were about to go to MV Doulos of course I felt exited because it would be the first time in UP that I’m going to go in a field trip. I thought that that day would never happen. It was a month when I have heard news about MV Doulos in Television during the Jessica Sojo report. When I watched it there I said to my self that how I wish that I could be there to see the books they have bought from different places to the world, you know being there would be like touring to different bookstores in different countries. But I said to my self that time that that thing will never happen because they are in Manila and I am in Cebu. But then the Lord is very merciful. I heard directly from Mdm. Gallo’s mouth that we are going to MV Doulos together with the second years so I was very happy at that time that I couldn’t hardly believe that what I thought to be impossible is going to happen. But a sad thing happen a week before the trip my mother called us and she said that she don’t have money anymore so we lend her the money because what shes doing there is much more important than buying a book, but I admit I really felt bad about what happened. So I felt very bad that I cannot buy a book anymore. When the day of the trip came my father gave me 200 he said that I could use the money to buy the book I like so I thank my father for the money and so I went to school. The funniest thing that happened to me that day was that I was waring my school uniform when I have to ware intrams T-shirt and my pants. So I immediately changed my clothes because I am afraid that they my list me in the violation notebook for warring uniform than intrams T-shirt. Then they all laugh at me because I did not listen when they made the announcement. During that day I was also very busy making my letter for my parents for the Valentines Day because our English teacher required us to do so. During our home technology period Mdm. Gallo made some announcements that we have to prepare 15 pesos for the jeep then I heard my other classmates complaining that they don’t have money any more because their mother only gave them enough money for going home from school to their house. But I think the treasurer lend them some money. When the afternoon came we were all very excited. We were all shouting everywhere because of happiness. When we were about to go there was a big problem because our classmate went home for lunch and she was not able to arrive on time and we all have to go. When we were on our way somebody texted Mdm. Gallo that she was there in UP so Mdm. Gallo said that we are going to turn back to fetch her but when we arrive there she was not there anymore so we went straight to MV Doulos. When we arrive there we saw our fellow UPians climbing the stairs to MV Doulos. When we arrive in the bookstore Joni and I was touring the whole boat watching the see, reading the books, and going to different parts of the boat. The crew also entertained us in their entertainment hall and after that we were given a chance for the last glimpse of the bookstore. I thought we are going to stay there for an hour after the small program but we didn’t knot that all of the freshies are about to leave when we were touring the ship we didn’t saw another freshy so we were very nervous and we came to the stairs we saw all the freshies down there lining and waiting for the jeepney to fetch them. In other words we were the last freshy to go down in the stairs. When we arrive in UP my father fetched me and he asked if I used the money so I told him that I did not use it because we might need it.
First Com Arts week in Up
When I first entered UP, it did not really came in my mind that we would be charged of big responsibility because we were still in first year, I find this wrong as the Com Arts Week goes nearer. We were really busy that time when we have to practice every day and even on Saturdays for our chamber theater, And for our Pinoy Rock Band. Before I will say what happened I would want to say thank you to Mdm. Gallo for supporting us because she is really the one who made us practice very hard, if not because of her maybe we did not won the First prize for the Pinoy Rock band and maybe we were not able to make our Chamber theater successful. For the first time in history I was charged as the director of the Chamber theater and it is not a joke because being a director would involve disciplining your members and telling them the things they should do and even to arrange the sequences of the events. Well it is not only me who contributed for the directing of the chamber theater but all of us. If not because of their ideas and suggestions the chamber theater will not be successful. Well Actually, we did not won the first prize but we were contented because we have showed the audience with a beautiful presentation and we made them happy and amazed of the ideas we showed. Maybe the reason why we did not win is because of the over all performance. To tell you the truth some conflicts happened during the practices, but it is all in the past and we can say that we could charge it on our experiences. And one thing that we were involved is the Pinoy Rock band and there I have proven to my self that my classmates are really very talented like Fidel (Walay manungog ha…) he was able to make a drum set made of recycled materials and it really sounds good. Actually we were very shocked when he brought all those trash in our classroom and then he assembled it and formed a drum set. Another instrument that we used is a guitar and we also make us of a recycled plastic bottle and put some sand there. At first we were having a problem of how we will be able to play the song “I” in the guitar because all the song hits which contains the chords of I is very hard to play but because of Joni she was able to look for the tune of I in the guitar without using the song hits. When the day came that we have to present our song I was very nervous and we were all cramming because we cannot find a better costume for us but then Leslie was there to help us about our costume problem. After we presented the song I did not listen to the other songs sang by the other year levels because I was thinking that our presentation was not good and I really felt very bad about myself because what we planned is that I will go beside Janelle to comfort her during the MTV but I was very shy to do that and they asked me “ why didn’t you apply what we have practiced?” and then I felt really bad about my self so I hide near the music room with Isabel and Grace. And we were eating Nova. And when we were on our way to Bartlett we could already hear the noise of our classmates. At first we thought that It was the next section but they told us that we won the Rock Band and we were all very happy.
Fiesta in Carcar
During the summer of 2005 we went to Carcar a month before the Fiesta because my uncle had arrived from the shore I mean from the boat because he used to be a seaman. When we arrived in Carcar two weeks after that Ate Joanne had arrived from Davao. She was really very friendly and also a nice person. Infact she was really my aunt because she and my mother were cousins but she was still very young and she was still in second Year College during that time if I was not wrong. Actually it was my first time to see her because she used to live in Davao. It was always in every Fiesta to have a “Kalingawan” a week before the fiesta and if you are in Carcar expect a lot in their Kalingawan that it would be a good presentation. Like one night we saw a contest for all the Gays out there and you could really see that they have really prepared a lot for the pageant, but the pageant is not like those beauty pageants you see in the TV’s although they still have question and answer portion the contestants will also be in a game which is also part of the contest like one game they had. It states that they will be grouped and they have to form the highest tower so you could really see that one Gay was standing on the shoulder of the other. And it was really funny. Then another experience was the Dance Group contest. It was one of the Special and unforgettable contest because I have seen the cousin of my classmate and I really didn’t know that he was really my classmate’s cousin. It was not only wonderful because of the Kalingawans but also because of our bonding at that time. Actually I was never bored during those times because of my cousin’s there like Lyka, Kyle, Andre, and Van Allen, and of course my lolas/grandmothers and lolos/Grandfathers which are very young at heart. Well actually my grand parents in Carcar are dead but what is left for me is my Grandfather’s brothers and sisters and his mother. During the day of the fiesta my mother and I attended the procession. (I don’t really understand myself every time they will say that we are going somewhere else even if just in the other house because I am always happy when it comes to traveling.) So in other words I am very happy again because we were walking together with the crowd of people bringing candles and then we passed by to many houses and all the people of their houses were out there to watch the procession and there are many coconut husks burnt beside the street. After the procession we went back home. That fiesta served as a reunion for all of us because my aunt also arrived from Saudi and my grandfather’s brother had arrived form US. And there are many people in the house at that time. All of them were planning to go to the DISCO but I was not allowed to go there because the doctor had warned me to go to bed early. And when I woke up in the morning every body was still sleeping except me and my mother and father and when every body was awake they said that an accident happened in the DISCO because one person brought a knife and was planning to kill somebody there. So I my mother told me that God had saved us because we did not went there.
DRAMA FEST
It was really a very good experience. We never thought that it is going to be fine. First time we learned that we are going to do such things, we were really shocked when Mam. Rabago told us that we are going to make a mini drama and that we should start selecting playwrights written by Filipinos. When we learned that we are going to present it in the last week of February we told ourselves that last it is long enough for us to practice but we already start to shiver when the preliminary came. Actually, supposedly I have no role but then our director told us that everybody is going to have his own role. I was about to object about what she told us because it might be a burden for the production staff in preparing the setting and at the same time practicing for the roles that they are going to play, but then I cannot do anything because it was the directors choice. I admit it is really very hard for us even before the day of the presentation. We had all the kinds of cramming and etc. and you can hardly describe our faces during the practice. One of the hardships we have encountered was selecting the right time for the practice because most of our main characters are involved in some activities in the campus and they have to manage their time wisely and sometimes they really can’t make it for the practice, and you know practicing without the main characters is like nothing because the story really evolve in the main characters. I admit that I am not that serious in our practices. Whenever we are practicing I am just roaming around, laughing with my friends and sometimes they will scold me for not participating well and for being involve in some extra curricular activities during the practice. Heheh… and I want to say sorry about that to all my group mates. I will never forget the day when Irene and I were having some misunderstanding in scheduling the practice. I also understand her part because every weekend she has to go to Danao and it will be hard for her to travel very early from Danao to UP. At that time our classmates really stopped us but for me it is not really that big for us to forget our friendship but then we asked for forgiveness with each other and she told me that the reason why she uttered those words was because of stress cause she is also involved in some activities in school. During the last Saturday before the play we were about to practice but it was cancelled because a member cannot attend for the reason he has many things to do. The funniest thing that happened to us was the carrying of the bahay-kubo from Lahug Elementary School to UP. Well Lahug Elementary school is near we, I mean they, really have to exert much effort because of the wind. It happened when they were carrying the Bahay-kubo a very strong wind really stroke them and because of the strong wind they were about to be flown away in the midst of the street and I was not able to help because I was really dying in laughter during those times. During the presentation, our classmates were worrying that their mothers might be angry because they forgot to tell their mothers that a drama fest is going to happen and that they will be home late. But then after all the cramming we have, even during the presentation, it was all worthy because experiencing like that serves as exposure but I admit that I was really shivering during the play.
As a Upian
It is not a joke when you say you are a student in UP. There are many things that you should do day by day and it seems that all the teachers are not tired of giving projects like this. Every time I pass by in my neighbor’s house they told me that it seems that I was working all day that’s why I look so tired every time I go home. Well the truth is that every time I go to school its always a hard day because many things should be done when you enter UP. Because of my busyness I cannot give too much attention in the house. Well actually in the house it seems that I am the only person every day because my father always go outside and I am the only one left inside the house, doing my assignments and sometimes watching TV or even of my father is there I don’t speak so much because he always acts like he has many problems and he has no time for my stories. It is really sad. You know I would rather choose to be in UP than in the house because even if I am very tired every time I am in school it is still enjoying because I have many friends there and you could see how wonderful the world is if every one is very happy. In UP you have many responsibilities to do and I know that this will lead you to be a good leader someday. It is really true that no matter how stressful UP is if you are a child then you will still act like a child. I even thought before that all the students in UP are not friendly but I was wrong when I met my new schoolmates, infact they were all enjoyable to be with, they even help us when we have problems and they sometimes give us advises of what we should do to remain here in UP. One thing I have experienced here in UP is is that whenever we have practices for a program we always come here to school on Saturdays for the practice like what we did the Saturday before the Com. Arts week for our chamber theater and that was really my First time. Because before my parents wont allow me to go somewhere else on Saturdays if they will not be there. Right now I could really spot the difference between my life before in Elementary and now here in High school. And this bog of mine could also serve as a look out of what will happen to the future students of UP high especially now that the results for the High School test is nearly coming, so one thing I could say to the parents of those future students of UP high, expect a lot that many things will happen in your child’s life when he/she enters UP High, and one more thing you should provide many vitamins for your child.
Monday, February 5, 2007
Me as an Anime lover
Even when I was still young I really love to watch anime. Sometimes I feel very different from the others especially from the children af my mother’s friends because they all watch cartoons from cartoon network and I always watch Japanese Manga or those anime made by the Japanese. Sometimes I would ask myself how they could make such a wonderful work and I can’t draw correctly a tree. Well even if I don’t know how to draw but I am contented in watching others work. At first I was very interested to know how anime came to be, maybe it is because of the hard work of the painters.
Even when I am still young I really love to watch anime. I could still remember that Ghost Fighter was the first anime I have ever watched. I even got posters of it and my family and we watched Ghost Fighter the movie in the cinema. My parents really know what would make me happy at that time. After ghost Fighter I always watch Flame of Recca. It is a story of two brothers of different mothers that were fighting for the throne of their father but then their father died when they were still young in a battle and after the fight their place were burned and all of their tribe members were killed but they were able to escape and they went in the future. And there they met each other.
After Flame of Recca I watched Naruto and then I also watched Hikaru no-Go. I first read the story of Hikaru no-Go in my Shonen Jump magazine because I bought one during 2003. It was a story of a ghost who was a Go instructor before of the Emperor during the Heian period. His co-Go instructor cheated him and when he lost his position he threw his self in the river, but his soul was trapped in the Gp board and it was searching for a child which would let him play once again. First he met Honinbo Shusaku of the Edo Period then 140 years after Honinbo died he met Hikaru.
But right now on the present I was crazy watching forward for the Prince of Tennis, it was a story of a tennis player (Ryoma Echizen) who’s dad happen to be Nanjero and was once the best player. The story was turning about the life of Ryoma and its Adventure in the Seigaku Tennis club, with his co-regular members and his handsome captain, Kunimitsu Tezuka, who had an injury in his left arm because of what had happen to him when he was still in his first year level.
Well I admit that I really like Kunimitsu Tezuka because even though he had an injury he is always serious with what he is doing actually he was able to win many games against Ryoma Echizen even if he had an injury. It is really funny because me and Joni were always quarrelling about Tezuka and our other classmates were also crazy about Fuji Syusuke who is also a cute guy that happen to be so close to Tezuka and he is also very handsome. And there are many more things that you will love in the prince of Tennis. Right now I was looking for a DVD of it, if you know some stores please tell me where.
My First Intramurals In High School
It was my first time to experience my first Intramurals in High School and there are really many things to remember about it. A month before our Intramurals we were all very busy preparing for it especially for our cheer dance. It was hard for the choreographers to teach us with our steppings because we were very many and some of us are hard headed and the number one reason why it took us so long to be taught with the dance steps was because of a conflict between the two freshmen sections.
I could remember that our classes are always shortened because we have to practice. I think half our subject in Science and the whole period of Reading And Filipino was always given for our practice and we always had special classes on Saturdays for our practices. Before I was afraid of my insomnia but during that time there is no more insomnia because whenever we reached home by the time we lie on bed we were all knocked out to sleep because we were very tired.
Every day we have to extend our time in school because we have to practice in the games that we are going to attend like for example I have to go home late because I have to practice table tennis and soccer base. You really have to spend so much time especially when the game that you will be participating is not familiar to you.
I’ll always remember that day when I auditioned for the duet I was very uncomfortable because I was very nervous especially when I heard Dan and Leejee sing the same song that we are about to sing. At that time I was about to change the song we have prepared but Kevin told me that I can do it and that there is nothing to worry about it even if we had the same song. So I went in and then when our turn came we sang together. But our burden in auditions has not stop yet, the next day we were asked again to sing the song in front of the other section’s students and in front of Madam Gallo.
After that they decided that it will be Leejee and I who were going to sing the duet and fortunately we won the first prize.
It is not the only important thing that I could remember in my intramurals, I could also remember the booths we had during that. Well we were all in panic because we don’t have any idea about the booths it is just that we thought of naming it a “Gotcha”. At first nobody was interested of it but after that day many costumers came and paid us to catch a certain person. I could also remember the booth of the fourth years where in I was about to be catch because it happen that I was in the quadrangle with many fourth years roaming around but thanks to one of the ates she let me go and hide. There are many things that happened during my first intramurals that I will never forget in my life.
Reflections of Teachers in Teaching
On our no year school day I played the role of being a Social science teacher but before I will tell you what happen during that day I would tell you first what happened two days before the no year school day happened.
Two days before the No Year school day had officially started we were given two forms for those who were applying. At First I was thinking to apply for Science C handled by Mdm. Gallo and for Health handled by Miss Maquilan. When Mdm. Gallo spread the news that the interview for those who where applying on her subjects will be in the afternoon of that day, what I did is that I ran towards Jeziel to get my application for Science C because I am afraid to be interviewed. So I proceed to Health that afternoon. Even if Miss Mquilan was very busy I sis still try to catch up with her so that I could apply for the position.
When I saw miss Maquilan she told me that I can not apply for health because our health subject is not covered for the no year school day, so I Have no choice but to apply for another and that is for Social Science and Filipino subjects. When I applied for Social Science and Filipino I was accepted right away.
When our no year school day had officially started, we were welcomed by everybody with a recognition or giving of ID’s for us student teachers. Then after that noisy event we returned to our classrooms. When the class for Social Science started we prepared a set of Questions for them to report within 15 minutes. But some students were complaining about the questions because some does not have enough resources to answer the Questions, and I was sorry for offending one student because I told her that we can’t do anything about it because it was Mdm. Logarta who gave the questionnaire and I think that she was offended with the tone of my voice but I asked sorry about that.
After 15 minutes everybody was ready to report and we asked each group to right the important things that everybody had to know because we were planning to have a test about that. Well actually I would like to have a very hard test because it is also open notes, so I was thinking the more notes they take the more chance for them to have a high score. But it was not me who made the questionnaires and I didn’t know that it was very easy so I accidentally told them that it is open notes. But then I was still very disappointed about their behaviors because they were all complaining as if the person standing in front of them was an ordinary student.
During my Filipino time unfortunately I was not able to teach my students because I have to attend our math preparation for the MTAP. So I asked Permition from my co-Filipino student teachers. And fortunately they were able to understand my situation so I was not able to teach at that time.
My first Experience
This last Christmas vacation, it was my first time to go to other places in the city without my parents with me. It was only me and my co-members in our group research were together for our project in Social Science. Well our project is about the women in society’s standards, how they were abused and etc.
That was the first time that I realized that having a research is very hard. First we went to DSWD but we can’t interview anybody without sending a letter of request. So What we did is that we have to return by the next day to hand our letter of request. After that day we were all very tired so we went to Ayala to go to the national bookstore to look for some books to buy if we have money.
The next day we return to DSWD to give our letter but it was not accepted because it does not have any signature of the subject teacher. It was very tiresome thinking that I could always enjoy if I was just staying in the house relaxing and watching Prince of Tennis and Hikaru no-Go but what can I do, if I will not do it early I will suffer in the end because I will have my research all alone. So I sacrificed my happiness for my project.
It was also very funny because we went to places which were not familiar to me that much because we were searching for “Lihok Pilipina”. We were lost in our way there and it was very hot and we were all very thirsty, hungry and tired walking many kilometers just to reach that place and we never thought that we were going to the wrong side of the street so we have to go back from where we started. Then at last we reached it. But we have to pass our letter too and fortunately we were scheduled right away.
When we went back to Lihok Pilipina to be there for our scheduled interview we waited there for an hour but they told us that the person we were about to interview had already left for manila the day before and we were again rescheduled for another interview. All of us were regretting on what had happened. So we returned home with a heavy heart thinking about what we thought before we went there that day that we will finally be done in all our burdens for that project. It is not only us who were sad with what had happened but also our parents who were expecting that after that day our burdens would be finished.
So again the next day we went there and thanks to God our interview was finished, infact they gave us some resources so that we would know more about everything that we have to know with regard to their program. After that we divided the work equally among us. A day after that my mother arrived from
My Father
When I was still young, I could always hear people singing songs especially when your neighborhood is big and crowded. During these times, people were still very poor and they can’t afford having a VCD or a Karaoke for their own. So I could say that the main tool in music of our neighborhood during these times were their guitars.
My father was a member of a choir on a church, which at the same time also serves as a day care for children. I have been there ever since I was a kid, my father would always bring me there on Sundays because their choir was asked to sing songs of praise to the Lord. Well I could say that their choir was extremely good especially the projection of their voices together, and you could always hear their harmony. Imagine a choir and all members were males it is very hard to look for male singers now a day.
I could always remember those sleepless nights without my father because he is practicing their songs on our small “Kapilya” together with his co-members, I could say that those are sleepless nights because I can not sleep without my father, he was the one who took care of me ever since because my mother is always at work. All their choir had during that time were their voices and their guitars, and even though they are poor it did not became a hindrance for them to form a very good choir, with very good voices.
Even when I was still young I was so Impressed with the way my father play his guitar. His songs have never failed to make me cry. Every time my father would sing me a lullaby though he wanted me to sleep, I always turn on the other side of the bed to cover my eyes and cry. Then my father would say that he will stop singing lullabies for me because I always cry. And even now it still makes me cry. Sometimes I laugh at my self for the reason that I cannot still hear those songs with a smile because I always cry.
On 1998 my father was forced to stop going again with the choir because we already moved to another place far from Bario Luz, and it is quite expensive having a ride from our new place to Bario Luz especially when he have to attend the practice thrice a week and it has to be during the night. Right now the choir was still alive but with new members, I haven’t told you that my father was one of the first member of that choir and you would hardly believe that the manager of that choir was once a maid but because of her hard work she was able to provide the choir with new instruments like the very big guitar, I don’t know what they used to call that, new guitars and a keyboard.
I am really sorry to say that I am not that good in playing the guitar like my father because I sometimes forget to hold it even once in a week because I am always busy studying my homeworks.
Devastating Experience
One summer morning Ate Christine, a maid in Carcar, woke me up because of a bad news. She told me that my lolo is already dead. That news really hurt me a lot. I never thought that that thing would happen, I thought that he’s going to survive. After a minute of thinking I went down the stairs and I heard my aunt cry very hard, when she saw mw she hugged me very hard and told me that my lolo is dead. So I told her to stop crying and not to worry because where ever my lolo is right now I know that he is already happy
It happen after my cousin’s birthday party we went together for the city because we are going to admit him in the hospital. So as we expected every body was expecting us to take care for our lolo because we were living in the city and it is very hard for the other siblings of my mother to go every now and then in the city to watch for him.
I felt at that time that my home is the hospital because every now and then we were always there to take care for my lolo. Twelve hours of being there and when we arrive home I am already very tired. So it happen that as time pass by my lolo’s condition is getting worse than before. He always had a Kimo therapy until the time came that we have to wear a mask whenever we have to go there.
And the funny thing is that my cousin who is really my lolo’s favorite is still 3 years old at that time would not be allowed to enter the hospital especially for the cancer patient’s room. So what they did is that whenever they would like to visit the hospital they would hide him so that he could still enter the hospital. One time when he went to the hospital we really have to call the nurse so what we did is that we hide him in the cabinet but he is always crying if we will close the door so we put him in the bathroom. When the nurse arrived she said that she is going to throw or flash the blood in the toilet bowl then she attempt to open the door pf the bathroom. Thanks to my uncle that he told the nurse that he is going to do it by himself. So we passed the challenge successful.
As time passed by his Cancer is getting worse so my parents were forced to leave me in Carcar because it is too dangerous already for children like me to stay in the hospital. So there in Carcar I heard many news that my lolo is transferred in the ICU and that my mother and her elder sister had a quarrel in the hospital. I could hardly describe my lolo’s feelings at that time. Maybe he would really want to stop the fight but he can’t because he can’t already speak a word and move his body. I think my lolo would like to say sorry to her first born for what he did to her before.
So when we heard the news that he is already dead of course I cried. Then I heard my aunt that she had calling a store because she want to make every thing ready before the dead body of my lolo will arrive in the house so our days of staying in Carcar was extended.
The Drum
Before I thought that the drum is the worst instrument that the world has ever had. With all kinds of noise, unpleasant noise rather, all put together in a single instrument. Well I really hated it before but everything changed when I was in Grade five, I never thought that the instrument I hated most will be considered as one of the most wonderful thing that had ever happened in my life.
I have many classmates especially the boys who were involved in our school band were playing the drums. At first I was looking at them from a far thinking that they were all insane because they were always tapping the table even if we were in the middle of the class.
One day my friend Rema and I were climbing the stairs. Then she told me suddenly that that she wanted to play the drum, so I was shocked because I never thought that a girl as smart as her would be interested in playing the drum. Well I felt at that time that I was different from the others because I think all of my friends are playing musical instruments in our school and I don’t have any interest in playing an instrument. So I said yes even if I am not on myself at that time.
Ten minutes later our school’s musical instructor happen to pass in front of us, so Rema ran towards him and told him that she and I would want to play the drum, and fortunately our musical instructor was very happy to say yes and he even told us that we could start by tomorrow. So I asked him if we could play the snare drum, but he told us that we cant play the snare because the school is running out of snare drums, so we have no choice but to play the parade drum.
When we wee walking back to our classroom Rema told me that it is very hard to play the snare because our hand should be very fast and she told me that it will also be very hard for us because we don’t even know how to play figure one in the snare and if we would be able to know it, it will take time. So I told her that I don’t know ho to play figure one in parade either, but she told me not to worry about that because it is very simple. So she taught me everything I have to know before the day ended.
So it happen that as time goes by I was also insane because of the drum and you know I even had an accident because I was very insane at that time. It happen when I was already late in the flag ceremony so I ran down very fast in the stairs because I thought I could still make it, so what happen to me is that my ankles was injured because I fell from the stairs. When I was able to learn figure 10 I did not proceed anymore for figures 11 and 12 because I was already insane in playing the snare’s figures especially figure seven. Even if I was not able to play the snare at least I was able to learn its figures.
The Past
Months before my graduation in elementary, I have already felt that days are passing very fast that I cant even notice that it is already the end of another month. I’ll always remember those days when my friends and me are very happy together, laughing together, and even crying together. I can’t just help it. You know? I have spent eight years in LCS together with my friends. Well LCS is really not big, that’s why I always see the same faces every year, and that it also the reason why we became very close with each other during those eight years of being together.
There are many things that happened during those years that I will never forget like when we and my friends would quarrel with each other, would laugh with no reason at all, and all those childish things that happen in lives of every child.
I could remember when we were still in Grade five, it was my neighbor who became my adviser and that was my first time to be very close with my teacher. Maybe it is also because their family was very close to me because her younger sister was my best friend even before we transferred in that place.
We shared a lot of moments during my grade five days. It was my first time to be interested in playing the drums. Well it is not really a drum set but those drums that a school uses every time they sang a national anthem and it is really fun. Actually they call me “Addict on Drums”, because they always hear me tapping the table every now and then.
It was also in the same year that I saw my classmates being panic because of a big rat. Well it is really very big, I think about 9-10 inches long and it made my classmates shout very loud that I think the whole school heard it, and the funny thing is my teacher is also afraid of it and she was the one who jumped first on top of a chair and as usual they all laughed at me because I really screamed very hard and I was also in the first line because all the girls had already ran on the back, well actually I was not about to shout at the time but it make feel me panic when I saw the rat running towards me, and all the boys were chasing the rat as if they were very happy.
Remembering all of these would really make me cry, although I didn’t mind many things or events that happened when I was on my last year it also made me regret one thing, that I have missed the remaining days together with my friends. Maybe because I was upset with the turning of events, that’s why it made me feel stressed, and nightmares always visit my dreams. So I said to myself that I will make my best to use my remaining days to fill those empty days which I have regretted very much.
During my graduation I thought that I am going to cry but it seems that there are no more tears that is coming out from my eyes but its my heart whose crying very hard. Then I asked myself a question “How can I turn my back from the past if it had taught me of many wonderful things that a person could never expect”.